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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

12.06.2025 04:04

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

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Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

As i do to all so called friends.?

And i lived it daily.

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So whats the point in blame.

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

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Why did i forgive my father ?

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

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When she asked me how she looked .

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

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Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

Ive learnt so much.

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

Why were the Japanese soldiers in WW II so hesitant to surrender in battle?

But, we were locked up after school.

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

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I was scared of men, in general

(And it was in our own minds.)

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

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As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

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He was dying to do it , i knew.

She loved him until the end.

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

Why don't we hear our own snoring?

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

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Another so called friend had bit the dust..

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

This is how, and why children get BPD.

Is it possible for people who claim to be genuine and honest to actually not be? If so, why do they behave this way?

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

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Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

What do you think of a parent telling their adult child to “keep their personal life to themselves” in relation to talking to them? No reason they should say that it was mean what should I do?

So, i spoilt her more .

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

I write beautiful poetry .

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

But it wasn’t much.

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

I couldn’t, believe it.

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

I said to her

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

I waited trembling.

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

My mum and dad in the seventies!

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

He resisted the act ,that day.

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

Who then, do I blame.?

He knew the spot.

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

But ive been too sick for many years..

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

Im dying but, im not bitter.

Comes on , in middle age.

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

We were not on the streets..

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

I was seconnd youngest,

She married twice! .

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

I was very sick at this time too.

The only rule us 5 kids had .

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

I had hoped to write a book about this .

She wouldn,t have been !

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

We all went to grammer schools

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

I think the readers, may guess!

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

She was in good health!

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

This is soul school!.

I could never make a relationship work though!

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

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I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

I know ,a lot about trauma.

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

Im still living with it.

Especially a lifetime of it.

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

She found it foreign!.

My family never makes their pension either.

I have no regrets .

I never cut or harmed myself..

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

All the time i was locked up.

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

On the 31st of Jan this month .

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

I was 9 years of age.

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

They are buried together, in the same grave..

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

It was going to be , some day.

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

One cannot live in the past .

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

Was to survive, this bastard.

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

I don,t even have a pension.

Put me off passion for life!!

I will be 64.

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

Where the ultimate outsiders.

I did it because my mum asked me too!

What did i know ?

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

And who doesn’t know suffering?

My life is so biszare .

Would this be the day?

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !